Bisous

New York, I love you

Recent events have caused me to realize a few things about myself.

#1 =======> I WORK TOO MUCH

I have had the flu for the past week and am finally starting to feel better. It was pretty ridiculous though... I was shaking, had a fever, felt really weak, and in general looked like shit. But despite my sickness, I was still trying to carry out my daily activities as though nothing was wrong which proved to be a stupid idea. Admitting defeat and taking a few days off of work to sleep a lot was the solution and now I'm feeling about 75%. But since I started working at this new job I have never been sick so often. In 6 months I have been sick 3 times from pushing myself too much.

#2 ========> I WANT TO TRAVEL

Friends that I have met out here have inspired me. I've been having discussions about traveling and the fact that I have never really traveled and I realized that I'm bored. I really believe that traveling is important and right now I have no ties. For the first time in my life I have nothing stopping me from doing whatever I want which is an incredible feeling.

#3 =======> I HAVEN'T GIVEN NY A CHANCE

I work approximately 60-70 hours a week. Sometimes more and when I have a day off I am so tired that all I do is waste it by sleeping or doing errands that I can't do during the days I'm working. I've been saying that New York isn't for me, but someone told me the other day, "Of course you don't love it here. You never explore the city or see things because you work an inhuman amount. How could you love it." That hit me like a freight train. It is very easy to get overwhelmed here and do nothing but work. But of all places in the world, I live in New York. It is an exciting place and everything is here. I need to start taking advantage of the city.

I tend to get lazy. I have these lofty ideas of an an "easier" day to day state of living and I do nothing to execute the things that will help me relax and be happier. Well not anymore! Today I decided to take the day off. I gave my shift away to someone and went with my roomie Nicole and her best friend Patti to The Daily Show with John Stewart which was hilarious.

Had sushi and then saw the tree in Rockafeller Center which was ridiculous.

And went to some friends house to watch the season premiere of Jersey Shore. It was a lovely day. I work tonight but woke up early to eat oatmeal, and am going to the New Museum. Eek!

Also, I am going to LA in February and Italy/France in April. I'm also considering moving to London or Shanghai after my lease expires here in September. Oooooooo....... I'm excited!

I am sick of being bored. I once read that the mark of happiness is never being bored and I believe that.